I broke up with Dr. Steingold today. I basically gave him the: "It's not you! It's me! ... and my lazy ovaries! ...and my insurance coverage! ...and we haven't won the lottery!" speech.
I was totally unprepared to give that speech. I probably should have been more prepared, but I was mostly calling to request round 2 of Femara, and mentioned to the nurse that this would be our last month of trying with drugs.
Dr. S. apologized profusely that he didn't manage to get me pregnant. He really sounded like he meant it. He seemed sad for us. I reassured him that if we come across several pots of money, we'd be back. He said "Absolutely!"
He offered 2 more rounds of Femara instead of 1. We'll see. I'm kind of done with drugs. I'm ready to get back to my normal Sarah-self. I'm ready to stop all the testing and waiting and obsessing and crying over spots of pink. If we do two more rounds, I think we might wait on round two for a bit. Store up some hope first. Avoid taking fertility drugs and testing on vacation. Maybe we'll vacation from infertility as well as work.
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THAT sounds like a great plan. Clear your mind with no hopeful agenda. Good plan! Your vaca is going to be FAN-TAS-TIC!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteps. I keep forgetting to tell you that I bought our living room curtains. One day I will remember to email you about them.... The exact ones we looked at. (except, they are blue.) Green was out of stock for 3 weeks, and I got completely impatient.
I too am a fan of snorkeling in the Keys while on break from baby making. You should enjoy your vacation! It's going to be awesome with that snorkeling get up.
ReplyDeleteYou sound very confident in your decision! Good for you. Have a great vacation!
ReplyDeleteI agree - take a break. We took a break from everything - meds, charting, worrying about anything fertility related, even TALKING about it all when we went to Hawaii last year. It was awesome, and probably one of the best things we could have done for our marriage. We were able to enjoy the islands and eachother, and it really brought us back to a good place. Not that you're not in a good place. But you know what I mean. You deserve to spend sometime focusing on you and Rob. And enjoying the hell out of the Keys. And frosty drinks with little umbrellas in them. Get to it, girl.
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